Knowing these things just makes me nervous. I'll finally be taking charge of my life. Tomorrow will be the start of the life where I have to calculate every little thing I have to decide upon because after 20 years of having had to depend on my parents for many things, I'd finally be solely accountable for my actions.
At the same time, I am ecstatic. This is just the beginning. And tomorrow's the time when I'll finally start seeing my efforts coming into fruition. Tomorrow, I'm a big step closer to fulfilling my dreams.
And on top of everything, I'm scared. I'm scared of having made the wrong decision. I'm scared of not doing the right thing. I'm scared because I don't know everything that's going to happen in the future.
But then again, life's always going to be like that. There are really no guarantees, no certainties. I should know, as a statistician, I've been basing everything on uncertainty for the last four years. Each day is going to be a challenge, going to be a risk. And at the end of the day, it all boils down to faith: to believing that everything will turn out fine, that there's a reason for everything and each detail figures into one big plan, His one big plan.
I'm nervous and excited and scared. But most of all, I'm all set for this next ride.
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." ~Jeremiah 29:11
