Rolling with the Punches

Naturally, as the year draws to a close, I start to ponder on how the past year panned out. I am a normally reflective person, so for the past few years, it hasn't been a stretch for me to remember the lessons I've learned, the memories I've made and everything beyond and in between. But this year's reflection is another story. As I try to remember, I start scrambling my mind for anything. And come up with nothing.

The thing is, the past year has been quite extraordinary. And as of press(!) time, I am still making up my mind if its extraordinary-ness is a good thing or a bad thing. It's extraordinary in the sense that I've been some sort of a different person last year. I was more angsty but I also kept to myself more. I stopped making lists which I used to love doing. I started doubting if I were really in the right career path. I've probably lost half of my idealism and optimism. Among other things. Although, in fairness to everything that has happened, the year has had its highlights, too. I've finally find a niche in my college. I'm almost assured of graduating. I've finally admitted to myself that yes, I have fallen in love THAT time.

But gone were the days when I could talk and talk about seeing signs, implications, reflections and eureka moments. I've come to be that person who would just go with the flow and accept whatever is in store for her. I am still trying to decide on whether I want to confine that part of me to 2010 or keep her with me 'til the next year. But if there's anything that I learned this year, it would be to be thankful for whatever you have been blessed with and indeed, what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger.